the narcissism of (sm)all differences

i went online today to find a word that combines arachnophobia and hypochondriac; ie, the feeling that you are always covered in invisible spiders. It's no secret that i went a little crazy towards the end of my time in egypt, and my number 1 fear was that i would somehow take egypt with me, specifically in the form of bugs.
i came across this blog, and honestly its like the best support group ever. I should make a more interesting point about the correlation between sanitary scientific modernity and the obsessive fear that invisible creatures will haunt you forever - but i'm lazy. i'll just point out that the idea of small invisible creatures living on me is infinitely scarier than either an invisible non sentient virus living inside of me, or a full grown visible animal confrontationaly attacking me.

this quote pretty much sums up my feelings:
"I wake up nervous and afraid each morning for fear that we will continue being infested forever and that the people I care about have caught it too. My bf doesn't ask me over anymore since I told him. Every morning I feel doomed and it's hard to stay positive and hopeful and pretending my life is normal. I've broken down a few times and I know it's a sign of weakness but I feel like it's never going to get better. Í don't see many posts or success stories on the Net when it comes to Bed bugs. "